This is something I would post on my xanga blog, but I dont want to let my folks or my brother to know , and get them alarmed about my situation. THey dont know I am unemployed! I dont want to burden them but I do like to share here... These days I am unemployed due to some freak happening at work , of which I worked for 4+ years (IBM) , and I was wrongly accused and terminated. The past 3 weeks I have tried to make the most of my life, I was very distraught and vengeful emotionally the first couple of days after leaving, but encouragement and prayers uplifted me to move on and look at positives. Looking for work, it is hard as I guess the market is slow now and there is not much out there for me. However, I find myself practicing the piano more, taking time to learn more in my field, reading up, reading a book about World War I and II ( i have been fascinated by these two wars for such a long time, but never got around to seriously studying them). Also, using the time to pray, get closer to God, have a more focus, EXERCISE! (I've lost 7 pounds already and my gut is shrinking, walking and lifting lite weights). Reversed roles with my wife, and keep things clean around the house and cook dinner for her when she comes home. Also, selling alot of shoes to try to make me get by. I actually find myself with a LACK of time for all these things, between studying, practicing piano, taking shoe photos, setting up ebay, shopping , cooking , exercising, praying.... I am thankful for this time. I appreciate the trials Im going through as I can either make it an opportunity to complain and grumble, or I can take that opportunity to go through the fire and test my heart. increase the heart. My point here is not to boast. Not to confuse anyone. I just felt compelled to share this and my feelings which i feel is so important , I want to write it here , where alot of friends and brothers in this community can hear me out and perhaps be encouraged themselves. That is all. As lot of you know I am Christian , but I wont bog down some of you with any 'religious rhetoric' or anything like that. I did slightly above, but i cant help it. Just want to say prayer is important. It increases you. God listens. He cares and His Word helps me through , not to reduce trials and troubles, but to increase character when they come. I have an obligation to AT LEAST ONCE to share this with you all. This is it. I am very happy and at peace these days and more so I predict as days go by. I know others go through ups and downs empirically in their lives. That is a given. I hope everyone can come to a relationship with God. If at least, a paradigm or way of thinking that can allow them to be in a state of peace and a joy constantly though. That is it.