Originally Posted by Steve B.
Somehow dude I don't think the US Armed Forces would agree with your politics, and that would be a hell of a place to start evangelizing...
Eh, my experience with actual people fighting over there is that contact with reality usually leaves them considerably less bellicose. But, regardless, I am fully capable of separating my ideals from what I have to do. I'm less concerned with whether I'd be able to do it than I am with whether or not I'd want to. I'll admit to finding something ineffably seductive about it, but as it is, I don't think I'll be picking up a rifle just yet. (Corollary: I would totally be down for checking bags at Baghdad International with Custer Battles for 150k/year. Hook me up.)
Originally Posted by johnapril
You did not go all this way for no reason. Think it through. Will going anywhere else make a difference? Anywhere you go, the same equation faces you. You could have stopped in Ohio, in Indiana, in many of the places along the route you took and found a very similar set of circumstances awaiting you. What does this mean? Is it particular to you? No. We all face this sort of moment, sometimes multiple times, before we decide to deal with it. Perhaps there is still some mystery involved in the way things "work out" for each individual. The language you put to the experience of crossing a continent speaks to a pace you may not even be aware that you are going. Do you know how far you have to slow down? Have you considered that you are making choices? Is there someone who loves you waiting somewhere? Doesn't the mother form the child in her womb? Isn't the world contained in the blade of grass? And there you go, no one understands, we are not looking for a solution to life, neither are you. But that is the way you put it. You are using this sort of langauge. You are saying, Life is a problem that has a solution. But that isn't right, is it? Or you would have found it, after so long a travel.
You are right, at least as far as life being a problem in need of a solution. This may seem bathetic, but all I can say is that that has been my experience thus far. As it is, now, and as much as I would like to stay here, I'm finding the SF area and economy in particular to be, well, particularly inhospitable. If I had a car, it might be another matter, but staying here seems, while not impossible, increasingly Pyrrhic. I still have some resources back in Connecticut, and that may be the devil I know. I'm not certain yet, but somewhere between the next few hours and the next day, I will be.