The Trendsetter
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So here's the thing. I became affiliated with the wrong crowd and made some major mistakes in my life. Unlike most people who take a turn down this path, I, thankfully, was able to realize what was going wrong and I put a stop to it. I moved out my apartment and started to disconnect my ties with people who I felt were bad influences. I started over, moving to my parent's house ten minutes down the road and stopping the smoking of weed, snorting of cocaine, and taking 11 triple c's to get as fucked up as I could. It was pretty pathetic, actually. I hated myself. Still do. But that is besides the point. I was good kid before all this, and I still believe I am. My grades in college went as follows: 1st Semeter- 3.5gpa, 2nd Semester- 1.7 3rd Semester- 0.00.... Yeah, ******** up pretty bad. But I am able to retake classes to fix my GPA, so it's not irreversible. There's some short background into this post.
So, now, I am living at home extremely bored looking for any source of enjoyment at all. I have no friends, because they all still cling onto their drugs like it's their ******* binky. They look at me like I'm some sort of bible thumping newborn christian. I don't want anything to do with them anymore. I still love to party and drink, and I feel like I can balance that with school because I was doing that before, but I am kind of over that whole stage. I'm only 19. I have been partying hard at this university since I was about 14, so it's not a new life for me.
I am focusing on school, and giving it's partying's old spot as my number one priority. I'm super proud of myself, but no one else seems to be. All my friends are still immature and think that buying a ******* gram of cocaine and blowing it, then buying two more the same night, then buying 3 e pills... is okay. It might be, but I don't want that to be me. I don't want that reputation.
So I don't really know what to do! I'm just so damn bored all the time with no friends. It's pretty terrible, especially being an extremely social person who thrived from friends. My family is essentially nothing in my life, so friend's were basically my family. I am considering pledging a frat, because one of my friends, who's not a complete **** up, is a brother there. We are decent friends and I feel like it would give me social life again without necessarily being tied into the drugs and immaturity. Mind you, I'm still a kid though, so although some of the fraternity aspects may seem immature to you, not all of them are immature to me. I still love becoming intoxicated and seducing women! Haha, yeah.
My point is, how the hell am I supposed to completely get over my old life and move forward to a life where I'm content without as much partying, and still focus on school? I need some sort of social life! I'm really dependent on other people, it's pretty disgusting actually, so I can't simply just sit at home, do homework, then masturbate and fall asleep. It doesn't work for me.
This is a lot of unecessary rambling, so I apologize. I'm just looking for some sort of advice, maybe from someone who has been in a situation similar to mine? I don't know.
So, now, I am living at home extremely bored looking for any source of enjoyment at all. I have no friends, because they all still cling onto their drugs like it's their ******* binky. They look at me like I'm some sort of bible thumping newborn christian. I don't want anything to do with them anymore. I still love to party and drink, and I feel like I can balance that with school because I was doing that before, but I am kind of over that whole stage. I'm only 19. I have been partying hard at this university since I was about 14, so it's not a new life for me.
I am focusing on school, and giving it's partying's old spot as my number one priority. I'm super proud of myself, but no one else seems to be. All my friends are still immature and think that buying a ******* gram of cocaine and blowing it, then buying two more the same night, then buying 3 e pills... is okay. It might be, but I don't want that to be me. I don't want that reputation.
So I don't really know what to do! I'm just so damn bored all the time with no friends. It's pretty terrible, especially being an extremely social person who thrived from friends. My family is essentially nothing in my life, so friend's were basically my family. I am considering pledging a frat, because one of my friends, who's not a complete **** up, is a brother there. We are decent friends and I feel like it would give me social life again without necessarily being tied into the drugs and immaturity. Mind you, I'm still a kid though, so although some of the fraternity aspects may seem immature to you, not all of them are immature to me. I still love becoming intoxicated and seducing women! Haha, yeah.
My point is, how the hell am I supposed to completely get over my old life and move forward to a life where I'm content without as much partying, and still focus on school? I need some sort of social life! I'm really dependent on other people, it's pretty disgusting actually, so I can't simply just sit at home, do homework, then masturbate and fall asleep. It doesn't work for me.
This is a lot of unecessary rambling, so I apologize. I'm just looking for some sort of advice, maybe from someone who has been in a situation similar to mine? I don't know.