amathew- as in your last name is mathew spelled with one T. I am positive you are a Christian malayalee and I want to tell you things will be better for sure if you just move to New York. There is an Indian presence here so you won't come off as a terrorist by every person who meets you. Some sure but not all. Also don't give Indian women one thought as most are stuck up princesses or at least they truly believe they are. Since you are no doctor and you are not fit and have a darker skin shade you are at a disadvantage with Indian women and their parents and parents play huge role among them. malayalees thou are a safe bet to become friends with since you will share much in common, parents will like you....... but if you want your penis to get atenttion you must look else where because most are just prudish from their upbringing and won't do anything till they are married. Practice talking to them thou and just be friends. Go to church and meet new people. Interact. There are numerous christian Indian orthodox churches scattered across ny. Get over your awkwardness. Now this is where living in New York comes to play, befriend girls from any other ethnicity and there is every ethnicity in New York melting pot and all, and just screw, have fun, date, what ever. liquor does wonder too.