Huntsman
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...and I am pretty agitated.
The Good: Have a good job at the 'perfect' sized company that makes stuff every US/UK/EU member here has seen, yet 99.5% of any room has never heard of us. My manager must be the most decent, human boss to have ever existed. I've been there a year or so to (mostly) acclaim, and have just signed my first round of US, EU, and Taiwan patents. Get to travel a little, which I love so much because I never had the chance. Live at home less than ten minutes from the office, so expenses equal nothing significant but $1k/mo to rapidly pay back my student loans. Am doing my Master's part time. If I get it and my PE in a decent timeframe, I'll have an excellent shot at my boss's job, say in the ten-year window.
The Bad: Am older than most with their first job as I dropped out of life for some time due to multiple seriously ill/elderly family members, a situation which, sadly, has diminished considerably. Consequently I always feel behind the curve. I hate that this is the worst class I have ever taken, that it destroys any joy I might try to find, as well as all my time. Likewise the Prof, who couldn't give me an extra day on the 1st homework on account of my grandfather dying with an out-of-state funeral, and the college's refusal to let me into the system to get the syllabus, hw, lecture notes, and readings for a week (the Prof ignored my phone message imploring him for help with that the day of the death). I am now a week behind and I will not catch up -- advanced mathematics is not art history. I likely won't get a B or better, so won't be reimbursed and will lose $3k+ for the class. I would graduate in late 2010 and can't even imagine three years of this.
The Ugly: I am girlfriendless with zero prospects at present and negative time to pursue anyway. And I am really lonely. When I had dreams, the last was to teach at the University level, so I need my Ph.D, and I have no idea how I can ever make that happen in Engineering with the way this is going. Engineering is seriously hard work, and life has worn me a lot in the last decade. I am quite competent at most everything I do, yet people always think I am better than even I think I am. Not being arrogant; it surprises me daily. I am fairly certain I could excel at anything that requires an organized mind capable of abstract thought, and further, that engineering is the most tiring of anything in that spectrum. And I am tired. Very tired.
Alternatively, MS Eng + MBA, or J.D. and IP law could make me quite a good deal of money, which would be more than acceptable. On wild days I think of chucking it all and getting a Ph.D in Philosophy and teaching that discipline, which I could do with comparative ease, and actually might do were it not for the $60k I owe for the undergrad degree.
This is all compounded by the wedding I just went to in Norwalk, during which I realized:
1. Damn, I need a girlfriend.
2. How badly I want a DB9 after seeing three (count 'em) F430s (zip, were you out and about around the Tappan Zee last weekend?) one F355, two SL65s, and one BMW M5 on the same trip.
3. That I really need to make some more money. Double my current salary in ten years, adjusted for inflation, would make me quite pleased (and give me a DB9 if I really want it).
4. Damn, I need a girlfriend, badly.
So yeah, another rant. There's other stuff going on, but that's too serious for the Web. I've a penny for anyone's two cents....
The Good: Have a good job at the 'perfect' sized company that makes stuff every US/UK/EU member here has seen, yet 99.5% of any room has never heard of us. My manager must be the most decent, human boss to have ever existed. I've been there a year or so to (mostly) acclaim, and have just signed my first round of US, EU, and Taiwan patents. Get to travel a little, which I love so much because I never had the chance. Live at home less than ten minutes from the office, so expenses equal nothing significant but $1k/mo to rapidly pay back my student loans. Am doing my Master's part time. If I get it and my PE in a decent timeframe, I'll have an excellent shot at my boss's job, say in the ten-year window.
The Bad: Am older than most with their first job as I dropped out of life for some time due to multiple seriously ill/elderly family members, a situation which, sadly, has diminished considerably. Consequently I always feel behind the curve. I hate that this is the worst class I have ever taken, that it destroys any joy I might try to find, as well as all my time. Likewise the Prof, who couldn't give me an extra day on the 1st homework on account of my grandfather dying with an out-of-state funeral, and the college's refusal to let me into the system to get the syllabus, hw, lecture notes, and readings for a week (the Prof ignored my phone message imploring him for help with that the day of the death). I am now a week behind and I will not catch up -- advanced mathematics is not art history. I likely won't get a B or better, so won't be reimbursed and will lose $3k+ for the class. I would graduate in late 2010 and can't even imagine three years of this.
The Ugly: I am girlfriendless with zero prospects at present and negative time to pursue anyway. And I am really lonely. When I had dreams, the last was to teach at the University level, so I need my Ph.D, and I have no idea how I can ever make that happen in Engineering with the way this is going. Engineering is seriously hard work, and life has worn me a lot in the last decade. I am quite competent at most everything I do, yet people always think I am better than even I think I am. Not being arrogant; it surprises me daily. I am fairly certain I could excel at anything that requires an organized mind capable of abstract thought, and further, that engineering is the most tiring of anything in that spectrum. And I am tired. Very tired.
Alternatively, MS Eng + MBA, or J.D. and IP law could make me quite a good deal of money, which would be more than acceptable. On wild days I think of chucking it all and getting a Ph.D in Philosophy and teaching that discipline, which I could do with comparative ease, and actually might do were it not for the $60k I owe for the undergrad degree.
This is all compounded by the wedding I just went to in Norwalk, during which I realized:
1. Damn, I need a girlfriend.
2. How badly I want a DB9 after seeing three (count 'em) F430s (zip, were you out and about around the Tappan Zee last weekend?) one F355, two SL65s, and one BMW M5 on the same trip.
3. That I really need to make some more money. Double my current salary in ten years, adjusted for inflation, would make me quite pleased (and give me a DB9 if I really want it).
4. Damn, I need a girlfriend, badly.
So yeah, another rant. There's other stuff going on, but that's too serious for the Web. I've a penny for anyone's two cents....