hater i would say that the experience of dieting down is well worth the results in terms of self-discipline, plus you will surprise yourself at the gains you can make while cutting. i was in the same boat - i was terrified at cutting down for fear of being dyel but honestly nobody cares or will be able to tell the difference. unless you are ready to step on stage or compete there is a good chance that absolutely zero people even know you lift anyways, so don't let that become a part of your decision-making process. and yes, hire john. not to shill, but it makes training very simple. certainly not easy, but simple. results-oriented, no bs, you do shit that works and good things happen. charly said something that stuck with me and got me to hire him - it is by far the best money he/i have spent on anything training related. if you spend any amount of money on supps, protein, whatever, you can afford to hire the guy.