You mention your poverty often. Just curious but do you see things getting better for you at all? This is an interesting question. Yes and no. Within the next few months, I will have paid off everyone I owe any money to, and will be back to even. It's been about a 12 year climb out of this hole and it will be nice to finally be out of it. But I'm still only going to be making around $25-27k a year for an indefinite and foreseeable future. It's kind of hard for me to get jobs still. I haven't had a raise at my current job in three years, and they told me I wasn't likely to get one this year either. Next year I might be able to have my criminal record sealed, which will make it easier to go look for other work - which is a problem I have been dealing with for nine years (at the moment) as well. After that, I might go back to school, and who knows - maybe I'll be able to find something decent. Everything in my life takes a long time because I fucked up pretty badly. I know it's my own damn fault, but it's too late to do anything about it now. Just gotta wait it out and keep plugging away.