Not making that call, I have really told myself I wont, and i'm not going too. Gonna take a shower, drink a beer, read a book and go to bed. Though, no one has provided much insight on this... Do you guys think, that since I was so adamant about telling her that I will cut off all contact with her, in the event of a split, thats keeping her from trying to get in touch with me? I feel like I kind of fucked myself in that way. Dude, if she really wants to get in contact with you and is fretting over whether she'd fuck things up by going against your wishes and contacting you anyway, then you have nothing to worry about. That was the goal in the first place no? Edit: the only way that yall getting back together wouldn't be delaying the inevitable is if she's as invested and committed to this as you are. You know how you feel right now? She needs to be feeling that too. We both know that what you're feeling isn't going to disappear quickly. If she's realized that she made a colossal mistake and just lost the guy that she wants to marry, then you don't have to worry about her suddenly disappearing.