Tycoon, since I raised the issue of the FFL, I am going to act like a responsible adult. here is the thing, the FFL may be jsut what you need to put your life in a certain direction - a little adverture, something different, a little savings, see the world. it will also be extremly hard and possibly the type of thing that will make you into a scicopath. the training will be a bitch, and nobody will be nice to you at all for years. the people you serve with really will treat you roughly. now, I am sorry to say this, there may be a good reason that the USMC didn't want you to have a gun. you may want to examine that, before you find somebody with lower standards. maybe what you want is something that will have a little less advernture but will have some structure - like the merchant marine, coast guard, crab fishing in alaska. it is something to think about, and possibly discuss with some responsible adults who actually know you are care about you, not some edudes.