From reading this forum I have conceived the idea that all of you are tall, slender, and well-proportioned. Â Your weight rarely varies by more than a couple of pounds and you can spend considerable sums on fine clothing, knowing that the garments will fit you well for decades. Then there's me. Â When I get to 195 I diet and shoot for 185, hoping that I may drift around 190 for a while. Â I haven't been able to exercise for a year (back) and now touch 200. Â After the surgery in 2 weeks I'll lose weight - initially by eating percocet instead of food and then by getting back to the gym. Â And so it goes. Despite the best of intentions I go up and down. Â How do I reconcile this reality with my wish assemble a decent wardrobe?