Goblin
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I just came to this realization and I need help, stat. I lack the distance at this point to be real objective about what I need to do.
I used to be just skinny. 5'9", between 125 and 135 lbs. I lived on alcohol, drugs, and cigarettes for a long time and looked like a spider monkey. After I quit all that mess, I went through almost 4 years as a very strict vegan.
In 2002, I said "to hell with it" (sick of being weak and farting like a funny car) and started eating meat again, along with training Brazilian jiu-jitsu and lifting weights on something beyond an "assing around" basis for the first time in my life. I quickly put on a decent amount of muscle and not very much fat. Looking good.
Then about 2004, I got pretty fucked up in the head. Stopped training BJJ or doing any kind of cardio. Kept lifting weights, started eating like ****, took handfuls of antidepressants. Got up to a strong-but-fat 215 lbs.
Obviously I wasn't really happy or healthy at 5'9" and 215 lbs. I weaned myself off the antidepressants and cleaned up my diet a little. Once I went off the antidepressants, the weight melted off, along with a lot of muscle. Since January of 2005, I've gone from 215 lbs to what seems to be my set point of about 145 lbs. Definitely a change for the better.
I started skating again last summer and, predictably, fell off my board and goobered up my wrists, even though I know better than to catch myself on my wrists. Happens. So, I had to take a few months off lifting.
Now I can no longer escape the fact that even though I weigh 145 lbs and have a 29-30" waist, I look like **** with my shirt off. Shirt on? I look fine. Shirt off? I've developed a little potbelly and (shudder) the beginnings of moobs. I also have a slight double chin, even at this weight.
I've got to do something about this. This **** will not stand.
I understand that some of the problem is loose skin, exacerbated by the fact that I've catabolized a lot of muscle. But even at 145 lbs, I suspect my bodyfat is uncomfortably high.
My resources:
Bench
Trap bar (aka hex bar, shrug bar)
Olympic bars and dumbbells
Olympic and standard weights
Stationary bike
Power rack
Adequate funds for protein and other supplements to my diet.
I also have a homemade kettlebell, but because my wrists are still a little weak, I'm not comfortable doing ballistic exercises.
My constraints:
- Need relatively short workouts centered around compound exercises, as I'm on call 24 hours a day on most days, and can't block off more than about an hour at a time, counting warm-up/cool-down. I will make time to work out, but I can't be putting in marathon strength training sessions.
- I'm already ridiculously flexible so I'm not particularly worried about preserving or increasing flexibility. Least of my worries.
- I'm not comfortable squatting without a competent spotter, and I work out alone, so I will be substituting trap bar deadlifts for squats.
- I am not after significant hypertrophy. I would be happy at my current weight, or maybe 5 lbs higher, I'm just looking to change my body composition for the better. I realize people don't just accidentally "get huge," but I do want to avoid having to go up a size, as I just spent a large amount of money (for me) on new business clothes. I'd rather add muscle very slowly while burning fat, as opposed to adding a lot of muscle and fat and then dieting down. I prefer a lean look, and I don't think I could get huge if I wanted to.
I have a good grounding in the basics, but I'm so far off-track now that I'm having trouble filtering out the static and figuring out what I need to be doing. I could use some advice on both routine and diet. I do not like the "skinny fat" look, as I like to preserve the option of running around public places naked should such a maneuver be called for.
I used to be just skinny. 5'9", between 125 and 135 lbs. I lived on alcohol, drugs, and cigarettes for a long time and looked like a spider monkey. After I quit all that mess, I went through almost 4 years as a very strict vegan.
In 2002, I said "to hell with it" (sick of being weak and farting like a funny car) and started eating meat again, along with training Brazilian jiu-jitsu and lifting weights on something beyond an "assing around" basis for the first time in my life. I quickly put on a decent amount of muscle and not very much fat. Looking good.
Then about 2004, I got pretty fucked up in the head. Stopped training BJJ or doing any kind of cardio. Kept lifting weights, started eating like ****, took handfuls of antidepressants. Got up to a strong-but-fat 215 lbs.
Obviously I wasn't really happy or healthy at 5'9" and 215 lbs. I weaned myself off the antidepressants and cleaned up my diet a little. Once I went off the antidepressants, the weight melted off, along with a lot of muscle. Since January of 2005, I've gone from 215 lbs to what seems to be my set point of about 145 lbs. Definitely a change for the better.
I started skating again last summer and, predictably, fell off my board and goobered up my wrists, even though I know better than to catch myself on my wrists. Happens. So, I had to take a few months off lifting.
Now I can no longer escape the fact that even though I weigh 145 lbs and have a 29-30" waist, I look like **** with my shirt off. Shirt on? I look fine. Shirt off? I've developed a little potbelly and (shudder) the beginnings of moobs. I also have a slight double chin, even at this weight.
I've got to do something about this. This **** will not stand.
I understand that some of the problem is loose skin, exacerbated by the fact that I've catabolized a lot of muscle. But even at 145 lbs, I suspect my bodyfat is uncomfortably high.
My resources:
Bench
Trap bar (aka hex bar, shrug bar)
Olympic bars and dumbbells
Olympic and standard weights
Stationary bike
Power rack
Adequate funds for protein and other supplements to my diet.
I also have a homemade kettlebell, but because my wrists are still a little weak, I'm not comfortable doing ballistic exercises.
My constraints:
- Need relatively short workouts centered around compound exercises, as I'm on call 24 hours a day on most days, and can't block off more than about an hour at a time, counting warm-up/cool-down. I will make time to work out, but I can't be putting in marathon strength training sessions.
- I'm already ridiculously flexible so I'm not particularly worried about preserving or increasing flexibility. Least of my worries.
- I'm not comfortable squatting without a competent spotter, and I work out alone, so I will be substituting trap bar deadlifts for squats.
- I am not after significant hypertrophy. I would be happy at my current weight, or maybe 5 lbs higher, I'm just looking to change my body composition for the better. I realize people don't just accidentally "get huge," but I do want to avoid having to go up a size, as I just spent a large amount of money (for me) on new business clothes. I'd rather add muscle very slowly while burning fat, as opposed to adding a lot of muscle and fat and then dieting down. I prefer a lean look, and I don't think I could get huge if I wanted to.
I have a good grounding in the basics, but I'm so far off-track now that I'm having trouble filtering out the static and figuring out what I need to be doing. I could use some advice on both routine and diet. I do not like the "skinny fat" look, as I like to preserve the option of running around public places naked should such a maneuver be called for.