So, the past couple of years, i have been all over the place. Out of highschool, i took a year off to work and save money. After that year, i went away to university for molecular biology and genetics i feel that i am pretty intelligent The summer after first year, i moved out of my parents house with my girlfriend in northern toronto. I transfered to the university down finch and for a little over a semester went to school there. Because my grades were not stellar at the first university, i was just an arts student, but was enlisted in the classes of a biotechnology undergrad During my reading week in second semester, i had somewhat of an epiphany that academia didnt seem to be for me (i was not doing well at all living on our own and going to school). My marks sucked, i would probably fail a class or two at the end of the year. I has absolutely no motivation, no passion. I decided that, i loved cooking, i love food, ill try something hands-on in the way of the cullinary arts. I was fortunate in that before i ever went off to college for cullinary arts/skills, i was able to stage at a very influential and cutting edge restaurant in toronto picture for affect: Like anyone starting out in the cullinary world, i was worked like a dog. And i wasnt paid! I had alot of fun, i met alot of great people, i really liked everyone there and feel like i came out of it with a better understanding of where i should be in life. It wasnt the hard work that turned me off, it was the realization that the cooks i was working with were not necessarily there by choice. Most of them started out as dishwashers, and eventually became cooks over time. They didnt have the opportunity to go to school, take advantage of their intelligence. I do, and i have realized that the life of a cook or a million years from now, a chef is not the life i want to lead. But what i want to do, i have not the faintest of ideas. I could go back to school for the sciences, i could pursue other directions such as industrail design, art, computer science, but i dont know how i can decide. I feel as if all i have known since grade 11 when i was choosing my grade 12 course selections thinking that i wanted to be a dentist is science. I have many interests, and i am a very intelligent guys, i just dont know how to utilize my intelligence, how can i come about some realization? I am currently at a pretty cushy job as a bartender working 3 nights a week and making enough money that i dont worry about money. I could easily pick up more shifts during the week and live pretty comfortable. But i dont want to turn into one of those restaurant Lifers. i dont even know what im asking, but how can i make a decision about my future easier? this is killing me. I have spent several days so depressed, so emotional because i am stuck, and im asking a messageboard i lurk on for some help!