Kind of feel like i'm slowly falling out of love with my girlfriend, and in some ways I feel like i'm not even attracted to her anymore at times.
It's odd, kind of just cropped up out of the blue. I think she can tell, she told me she feels that i'm being distant and dismissive.
I don't want to make a rash decision, because she still is one of the most important people in my life, and she's stuck by/with me through some very trying times of mine. It's just kind of scary to me, because we are pretty much set on moving to another state together in the New Year. Maybe the feeling that i'm so committed caused this reaction.
In the entire time i've been with her, counting times when we've been on and off again, it's been like 3 years. In that time i've never once felt compelled to cheat. During breaks, or when we're off i've seen other woman, slept with them too (one of these woman became infamous due to a certain thread, i'm sure you all know) But yeah, when we're actually on and going, I have had no desire to be with other woman. I used to think she was godly in her beauty, but lately i'm seeing imperfections i've never noticed.
It's difficult to deal with emotionally, after all is said and done I can honestly say this girl is my best friend, and my everything...but a relationship can't survive on my hoping the spark will be reignited and all will be well.
She went on a mini vacay with her sister for a week, which is nice, because it gives me the space I wanted, without having to ask for it.