Originally Posted by MarkI
I fucked things up so bad.
She calls me last night at like 1 in the morning, I tell myself I shouldnt answer, dont do it, I fucking do.
Girl: Hi...i'm suprised you picked up.
Me: I'm suprised I picked up too, how are you?
Girl: I'm ok, I can't sleep...
Me: Me neither, you should come over..
She calls back like 5 minutes later, and this is where I fucking fucked up, she says that she changed her mind, and isnt going to come. I should have just said ok, fuck it whatever. But instead my emotions got the best of me and I start ranting and raving and saying thats so fucked up.
This went on for like 20 minutes, at which point she said shes going to come, but only because she feels forced, and is doing it for me.
She gets here, she just wants to go to sleep. I end up talking a lot, mistake.
In the morning, she wakes up late, misses both her classes, and is late for work. I just felt like shit, and woke up early and called out of work.
It ended with her being pissed at me, me doing the whole we should get back together shpeil, then she went crazy, and really started yelling at me, at which point I called her a peice of shit, and a liar, and told her i'm through with all of this.
I think I can safely say she wont try to call me again now.
I am such an idiot, sometimes I really fucking hate myself.
wow. Yup. Whatever hand you had, you lost. Sorry dude, I think at this point, you are fucked.
It's gonna sting for a while. Part cos you were dumped (and for a while there, she was feeling like you were the dumper
, but those days are over.
My best advice at this point is to start putting in some MarkTime.
This is probably the best time you will ever have to take up some of those things you always wanted to do. Guitar, jiu jitsu, photography, Spanish, whatever. As long as it 1. involves you leaving the house and 2. involves other people around.
At this point your worst enemy is your own head.
My worst advice would be to do this:
Originally Posted by MarkI
I would actually like to sit down with her, and properly part ways though?
Or is that a bad idea?
I mean at this point, both of us have done our share of fuck ups. Unfortunately this thing is dead, would asking her out to dinner, not complicating things, just having a conversation and parting ways be a bad idea? Should I just leave it at this?
It is incorrect that you have both done your share of fuckups. You are one major fuckup ahead of her, and you both know it.
Calling her in to try to put a stop to it all (and then regain the upper hand) will just look petty at this point. It will basically just reveal your hand (as we have spent the past few pages trying to establish it) and she will see straight through that.
Nup, at this point, while I wouldn't go so far as to say that you will never hear from her again, I think you are basically screwed. Get yourself to the gym and take it out on the punching bags.
Originally Posted by fuji
Crazy girl only really has 1 friend. I told her about it and she went fucking mental at me. She's a mutual friend and was complaining I don't care enough about her and that crazy girl won't kill herself and I should stop worrying even though she's tried it before . Crazy girl called me today saying she wanted to hurt herself again so I had to go see her and calm her down. She's going to therapy again and taking medication. I guess I can't just leave her this easily, its too much fucking drama.
wow. I really didn't expect that suggestion to backfire, my apologies.
Sounds to me like crazy girl has really no friends though. Hard to ever see a 'friend' reacting to that news like that.
Anyhow, I'd still back out. You have told someone who (theoretically) cares.
Back out, ignore the calls etc. She will probably escalate her threats via SMS or email, but in its own way that is just kind of a shit test.
If it really gets out of hand, and you really get super-legitimately concerned, perhaps call a professional (or her professional).