Thanks for all the support guys, it sure does help. I've of course tried quitting in the past with failed attempts but this time I really do have to. My health is no where near where it should be. I am a younger guy and can see the negative effects already from the past 10 years of smoking over 1 pack a day. It was to the point where I would wake up in the middle of the night from a dead sleep just to go outside to smoke because I needed that fix. Cold Turkey has been very very hard these 48 hours, but its the only way. I go crazy at times (like venting my story here), and the last 2 nits of sleep have been maybe 2-3 hours total sleep from an attempted 6-7 hours. Majority of those waking hours consisted of sitting on the edge of the bed trying to stop my teeth from grinding from the withdrawals, or pacing the house until I attempted to sleep again. BUT! One thing I do know is it has to get easier as the days pass. I sure as hell don't want to relive these past 2 nits again (well see 2nit what happens), but if I give up now; down the road I'll find myself faced with the same crazy nights.
Anyone have a remedy for teeth grinding? My damn jaw is killin me.
Just stay strong, man. When I quit, I crammed a week's worth of food into a backpack and headed into the wilderness where there weren't any cigarettes. I hiked and hacked--damn near 100 miles covered in a week's time. I can't imagine trying to quit without getting away from the ability to obtain a cigarette for that first week. I was like you, no choice: I was coughing up lung biscuits every morning and just had to do it. The cravings are going to be SO intense--you don't need me to tell you that at this point--but you just have to get past them. In my case, they lasted for 20-30 minutes at a time after I returned to civilization, then gradually diminished. Even a year or two out, you are still going to have cravings, but they'll only last a minute or two--just grind that jaw for that long and they'll completely vanish. Then another a month or so later, but shorter--a former landlord told me he still got occasional cravings 30 years after going cold turkey, but knew they'd go away if he could hold out for two minutes, and most people can do that. Succumb to even one puff and you'll be an addict again. That's what happened to me the first time I quit. Five years clean, one puff and right back where I started. The second time (I headed into the woods both times) was easier because I had a better idea what I was up against and didn't monkey with cigars or lighting cigarettes for friends, etc. No cigarettes in eight years now.
It may be a cliche, but one day--or in the case of cigarette addiction, one minute (at least at first)--at time. Hang in there.