Connemara
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Bear with me here. I just had an epiphany and really need to get it off of my chest.
OK, so I don't know why it took me so long to realize this, but I'm a grade-A wuss.
My parents and I just had an hour-long conversation about where am I and where I'm looking to go in life. Tones became combative at times, but it was very successful in the sense that it forced me to actually stand back and take a critical look at myself.
I've never had a serious job. Most people in college don't have careers, but by "serious" I mean 40hrs/week in a restaurant, bookstore, whatever. I worked at CVS from the time I was 15 'till I was 17 but never actually treated it like I should have. More often than not, I'd call in sick for bogus reasons and just treat is as something my parents forced me to do. Now I look at some of my friends who are paying for part of their education by waiting tables 4 nights a week and I feel like such a *************. All I do is sell luxury clothing and accessories. Real back-breaking work, right?
This past summer, my grandfather told me that I could work at his electrical/mechanical contracting company. I would have been lugging pipes and other stuff around, but the pay was $11 an hour or something. Of course, being a *****, I dismissed this as "too hard" and "too menial". A ridiculous outlook, and in hindsight I can really see how dumb I was.
Both my dad and grandfather had families by the time they were 22 and 18 (respectively). These guys worked more than 40/hrs a week to pay for rent, utilities, diapers, food, you name it. I'm suddenly realizing that, at the same age, I don't have an ounce of the courage they had. It makes me feel like I'm worthless.
So what does this all mean? Well, I'm going to suck it up and get a full time job this summer. Start saving for a new car. Maybe I'll get two jobs, I don't know yet. But I think it's time for me to grow up and start to at least act like a man.
OK, so I don't know why it took me so long to realize this, but I'm a grade-A wuss.
My parents and I just had an hour-long conversation about where am I and where I'm looking to go in life. Tones became combative at times, but it was very successful in the sense that it forced me to actually stand back and take a critical look at myself.
I've never had a serious job. Most people in college don't have careers, but by "serious" I mean 40hrs/week in a restaurant, bookstore, whatever. I worked at CVS from the time I was 15 'till I was 17 but never actually treated it like I should have. More often than not, I'd call in sick for bogus reasons and just treat is as something my parents forced me to do. Now I look at some of my friends who are paying for part of their education by waiting tables 4 nights a week and I feel like such a *************. All I do is sell luxury clothing and accessories. Real back-breaking work, right?
This past summer, my grandfather told me that I could work at his electrical/mechanical contracting company. I would have been lugging pipes and other stuff around, but the pay was $11 an hour or something. Of course, being a *****, I dismissed this as "too hard" and "too menial". A ridiculous outlook, and in hindsight I can really see how dumb I was.
Both my dad and grandfather had families by the time they were 22 and 18 (respectively). These guys worked more than 40/hrs a week to pay for rent, utilities, diapers, food, you name it. I'm suddenly realizing that, at the same age, I don't have an ounce of the courage they had. It makes me feel like I'm worthless.
So what does this all mean? Well, I'm going to suck it up and get a full time job this summer. Start saving for a new car. Maybe I'll get two jobs, I don't know yet. But I think it's time for me to grow up and start to at least act like a man.