In my dreams I am being haunted by a former lover

Friends, I would like to come clean with my impromptu for joining an English language forum as it has to do with exercising with an old ghost in my dreams. This is the first I have spoken publicly on the subject; on occasion I thought to have a conversation with Dieter but he is always so harsh on matters of the heart. Three years and a half ago I had a passioned lover affair that started in New York and traveled to Roma and Paris and ending in my childhood village in Rheinhessen. The subject of my blinded devotion was an American Italian named Rachel who has since made a great success out of her verbal charm and pearl whitened teeth. At the time it was clearly to see that her temper took the best from us. After many fights over her preoccupation with pornography and organic therapeutics we ended our great love with an aggression on her part that left a 5cm impression of those very whitened teeth on my left thigh just below my bikini line. Having mostly erased this great trauma from my memory I was very disturbed to see her face up to mine in my dreams. This first occurred a month ago and shocked me so that I jumped from my bed and almost impaled my left foot on a shoe horn. I have since lowered my mattress to the floor to avoid physical disability. Since the nature of these frequent dreams have come in two variations: simply her face is nose to mine as if to use her eyes like a Dracula's fangs to drain me or in a more complicated and frightening sequence her floating head is chasing me through a subway tunnel with her teeth biting the air as I helpless run as if falling through a darkened spiral. They both end only when I wake in a state of panic that is followed by a feeling of distended gas in my abdomen. As I do not believe in psychotherapy since I discovered my last consular was a fan of the English comedian Rowan Atkins in a most inappropriate sense I thought it practical to come to better understand the heart land from which my current state of mental distress originated and sew to seek advice from the relatives even if distant of my former lover. Thank you this time and please post your kind reply, Roland Loden of Germany

I am not certain if any of the replies in this subject are sincere but the humor is accepted in a gracious light as it is the nature of a typical bloke from Rheinhessen.