I graduated in 2010 with a JD from a CA school and I do not have a license to practice law. Took the CA bar once and failed. Since then I have yet to take another bar exam and am currently live in the DC metro area (moved back here 8mos ago) where I grew up.
I had a really rough time in law school and post-law school and was never able to get any traction with regards to building towards a career. As a result I have little (practically none) experience actually working in the legal field. I have a lot of regrets about how I handled my law school experience and would've done a million things differently, possibly never having gone/dropping out.
I live with my gf who has been extremely supportive of my decisions and have literally followed me around the country. I do think I will marry her in the near future.
Currently I work part time at 3 different jobs to make ends meet (~60+hrs). One of my "jobs" is an (unpaid) internship with a solo practitioner. My GF and I make just enough to scrape by; we usually have <$20 in our checking/savings accts after the 1st of the month lol.
As a result, given my current obligations, it is very difficult for me to pay/study for the bar. Also I am always stressed out, and have little motivation to study for it because whenever I get downtime, I just want to relax.
I liked law school and want to practice law. I'm not one of those people who believes that a JD "opens a lot of doors to a wide range of jobs." I went to law school to practice law. In fact my experiences have shown the opposite. It is impossible for me to get even a paralegal/legal assistant/doc review job (since many actually require a license). I want to continue in the legal field, but cannot work for less than $25/hr, when most of those jobs are are in the unpaid-$12/hr range.
For legal professionals out there, or those who are in my boat, what advice would you give to someone trying desperately to strike a balance between the necessity of working to make ends meet and taking the bar? How much hope should I hold out to ever gaining entry into the legal field? Even if I get my license?
I cannot take out a bar loan (I've tried) and my family can only help me out so much. Right now I can pay for the Feb. exam, but think that it may be a waste of money since I haven't studied much and will probably have to pay an extra $200 late fee because it's registration process is a goddamn hassle. Having to wait until July to take the exam and Nov to get the results is a scary thought too.
I am so lost