Thanks for the emotional support guys, as it really does help. I am not going to let this tear me up inside, nor will I let this destroy my life; however, having said that, this is still an emotionally painful time. I broke down in tears in the middle of one of my classes today; honestly, I don't believe I have cried in years. Everything in my life seemed pretty much perfect, and in one instant, that all changed. But, I'm not sure if that was really the case looking back, and although life seems painful right now, and I'm certainly ashamed of myself--I do believe that this experience has had an oddly positive effect on me. Over the past few years my energies that were once put into hobbies were funneled into another outlet, and now that that outlet is no longer accessible, I've dusted off tools that haven't seen use in years. I wish there was a more positive manner in which this would've happened; however, I had to learn the hard way.