Originally Posted by acidboy
hope you're over that, man
Yeah I am, things are better now thanks.
Originally Posted by NewYorkRanger
I've struggled with depression myself, sometime pretty bad, but never had I ever come close to that. I'm very scared for my children though, and hope they never ever have these issues, but know its out of my hands...
Sorry to read that NYR, thats a harsh skeleton to have in the family closet.
Never think that its out of your hands. One of the most supportive things I had were parents who understood (and had also been through depression). They didn't ask questions, just got my to see a spych and worked on distracting me by going on days out and making me do tasks around the house all day. You'd be amazed at home much a good support network and keeping busy can do for someone who is suffering from depression. Its not about getting to the "root" of a problem or having a guard day and night, its about having a few hours each day where that animal inside of you isn't clawing its way out through your chest.
Originally Posted by lasbar
Two of my friends from high school...
The one I knew besr jumped out of the window from his 15th tower block flat...
God bless his soul..
He was twenty years old.
Very sad to hear. That appears to be one of the toughest times.
Originally Posted by FLMountainMan
I went through the same thing, never went through with trying it, but go to the point where my roommate would call me all the time to check up on me.
The worst part was hearing from the few people I opened up to that "How can you think that way? You've got so much to live for. Any of us would kill to be in your shoes." My immediate thought would always be "great, if I'm not happy now, then, when will I ever be?" or more self-loathing about what an ungrateful person I was being. Ugh. Depression's awful. When you have severe depression, it's like how Steve Earle's character "Waylon" described addiction in The Wire
. You have something inside that wants to kill you. And it will always be there.
Amen. Glad you got through it. IMHO its all about finding things to do that mean you never fall back into the darkest thought patterns, but there is always that sneaking feeling that if you let your guard down you might suddenly slip back....