3 of my friends have taken their lives.
One (19 yrs old) was an alcoholic who drove his car into a telephone pole.
The second one, (22 yrs old) had been diagnosed with HIV and drove his car into a concrete wall.
The third (34 yrs old) hung himself in his parents garage for reasons still unknown, leaving a wife and small son.
A few other of my friends died very young: One (21) in a car accident was decapitated. Another went to his mothers home, layed on her sofa for a nap, and never woke up. He was only 36. And yet another (39) died of cancer, leaving a wife and 2 small daughters. All of these people were very dear to me and it is a terrible loss and the world is lonelier without them, may they all rest in peace.
I myself made 3 attempts at 19, 22 & 29. I won't give details. I am glad I failed. For all of lifes challenges, I am content to be alive.
I would tell anyone who is thinking of ending their life,
to get help. Call a distress Centre. Get a Therapist. Talk to anyone who will isten. Never give up on yourself. There is nothing wrong with you other than you are a beautiful human being trapped in a world of clowns. There are many decent people you will yet meet in your life so just look forward to that.