Not to denigrate anyone or anything, but to clarify terms, what constitutes a "serious relationship" at age 15?
Good question. For me personally a serious relationship is with someone you can imagine
spending the rest of your life with. If you can't imagine that, I think that it is just a temporary fling.
Why do you believe you "have found a very mature girl"?
She is caring, compassionate, not materialistic, and overall a very sweet girl. I can talk to her about other stuff than gossip and stuff around school, in fact we like to talk about world news and traveling a lot. She is serious about her work here at the paper and makes sure everything she does is something she can put her name to and not be embarrassed, and to be honest I think she is one of the best writers we have ever had here (no bias intended). I don't know exactly what it is about her, I was just mesmorized by her!
A little worry isn't a bad thing. Delusion is. I'm not suggesting that you are delusional. But be clear as you can be with regards to what you are seeking. You want one girl. Does she want one guy? Is this intended to be an exclusive relationship? College demands time. You won't see one another every day. Personal horizons and goals typically expand, often quickly.
She has said that she only wants one guy. I'm not sure what you mean by "exclusive relationship", but if you mean monogamous, than yes. Just the two of us and no one else. We both know what is going to happen through college, and I promised her I would keep in touch, and we both know where we want to go in life so to speak. I want to be a commercial pilot, she wants to be a photojournalist, and she is planning her college around that just as I will be going to an aviation-related school. College is going to be rough
There are many persons with which one will find "something in common." Many will be mature, too. A good number of these will give back what you give. Be introspective and go with your instincts. This is not necessarily what your heart or what your head is telling you, though that obviously figures in. Tempered influence though. What's 'right' for one may or may not be 'right' for another, you know. Is the person you desire able and willing to devote herself to you? If not, how are you benefitting from what then appears to be a very one-sided relationship?
For now my instinct is to try and get back together with this girl, I will have to prove to her who I really am and try to start this thing back up again. I feel (not to sound full of myself here) that I am right for her but that is only from what I know. I know I can treat her right and love her, and she said to me that she "likes me more than friends" so I guess I did something right at some point. I remember she also said after
I told her that I wasn't honest that "she loves me but is very mad at me right now" which I understand of course. I am benefitting just a little bit by realizing that there may be a little bit of hope left and that I may be with her someday, but if we get back together before she leaves I will truly feel better.
Do you really know yourself? Do you really know her? Do you really know what you want?
I know myself and I know her, and I know what I want in a relationship.