Alright... first off i am gonna say that this is party therapy for me trying to help you with your problems seeing as how i am in pretty much the exact same situation right now. My girlfriend of almost 2 years and i split up before spring break, and i am still feelin' it like it was yesterday. We were each others first, and were madly in love with each other, and i think secretly we still are, it's just that we are both too proud to admit it. We had a lot of good times, a lot of good memories, and some not so good times, but we always made it through them. Then one day she came over to my place and broke up with me. She's a senior in highschool, I am a freshman in college, she said we were just two different people now and that we were growing apart. Honestly, i never saw it coming and it hit me like a truck. But what really hurt the most, is that it was almost like she refused to acknowledge any of the memories and good times we had together, and really didn't show any shame towards me or how i felt at the time. I think partly this was just because she was still trying to convince her ownself that this was best, whether she has or not i dont know. But anyways this total lack of regard for me sent me into this downward spiral, drugs, alcohol, sex, and everymorning not only did i wake up with a headache, but a heartache thinking about her. And finally it hit me why i was doing this to myself, i wanted so bad for her to show some sort of care for me, that i was wrecking myself in hopes she would show some sort of concern, although it wasn't working. It's just really hard to be literally best friends, and completely transparent for a long period of time, and then one day just lose all connection with them, especially when you both still care deeply for each other. And as much as i hate to be saying this, because i know how much i hated it when other people told it to me, time really is the only cure. You won't forget about her, cuz God knows i have tried, so just accept all the good memories you have had together, and move on. I know its not as easy as it sounds, because i am still struggling with moving on myself, very rarely does a day go by when i dont think about her, but something i have started doing that seems to help a bit is just go out of your comfort zone. For me that was just talking to random people, approach it like a game almost, just try to meet as many new people as you can. And get away from your computer, especially if you talk to her on IM or something like that. One of the hardest lessons in life is accepting the fact that people change and there is not any thing you can do about it. Just know that this experience will make you a better man, and believe in your heart that things happen for a reason, and hopefully one day you guys can be good friends and be able to kick back some beers and reflect on the memories (of course while having your supermodel wife at your side). Hope that helps somewhat, it helps me a lot to write about. -A D By the way... where do you go to school?