Originally Posted by mimo
RTC, do you want to be a doctor? It might be a stupid question, but walking out into the cold air and asking yourself seriously, might straighten a few things out in your head.
If the answer is "yes", then I'm with the consensus on taking a year: the other way you suggested would be sensible if you issue were just that you are a little behind and need some extra study time. But taking that route puts a new set of deadlines on you and doesn't, I suspect, give you quite enough room to breathe.
If you are taking the year, go and do something completely different for a couple of months somewhere. Seems like the walls are just closing in a bit and you need a walk in the wind, a bucket of water over your head and a kick up the arse. Take it, it will do you good. :)
Nemo, I know that this is what I want to do. I've seen weird glimmers of interest over the last year. It wasn't like the drudge that comes along with working etc. It affected other areas of my life more than I realized until I started taking meds. And yeah, there's a decent chance I'd take a trip or go do a roadtrip this summer if things pan out. I'm probably going to take some time to finish building the car up and spend some time alone getting it working and driving it around and visiting family before holing up again.
Had a meeting with one of the directors of the main course today and talked to him for about an hour. Even when I've been in an unfortunate circumstance, I've been pretty lucky to have pretty fantastic people available to me. We talked for atleast an hour and the conclusion was basically that we were both sure that I could pass, but how does 'just passing' affect my future goals and practice and how does it play a role in putting together the foundation for the rest of my education. He talked a lot about how he has seen everyone from medical students, to residents, to fellows, to attendings try to get through things without the full foundation they needed and how they're always kind of chasing their tail to some degree.
I honestly don't think I made the connections I wanted to make in the material this year. I have spent the last year staring at everything I'm doing through a haze and it is blowing my mind how much more quickly I'm able to understand something or how much longer it takes me to get lost. We both agreed that given how things have gone for both classes this year, my dedicated period would involve a significant amount of time devoted to making sure I had learned all the stuff that is supposed to be fresh from this year. We agreed that it was essentially akin to cramming for the boards.
Part of me knows that I can do this given how I feel, but I'm not sure I can rely on that feeling lasting. I feel like this entire plan is predicated on a schedule and plan working perfectly without any wiggle room for error, or getting sick, or needing a few more days to get something down, or the scariest of all of these... the haze returning for a bit.
Yesterday I felt like I'd made a decision to stay the course and now I'm second myself after talking to someone that I trust and respect.
Originally Posted by Dino944
Yes, I'm aware that the first 2 years are all book learning and the last 2 years are largely clinical, although there is always book stuff to know and learn. My Dad is a retired physician. He thought if you make it through the first 2 years the last two years are much easier. Anyway, wishing you luck with whatever you decide.
There's always stuff to learn, but the way you learn is very different. I've heard that as well, re: the last two years being easier. I've heard everyone say that they're a lot more fun. Here's to hoping!