problem is how my body puts on muscle is very unaesthetic (to me atleast). Especially with full body and compound lifts, goes to back and thighs, makes me look like a turtle. When I was 5 lbs lighter i was relatively strong (bench at 280, deadlift at 460, deep squat at 280, probably a little higher for parallel).
II just want visible lower abs and a physique between a runway model and an underwear model. I think I can do that and have respectable (though not impressive) strength.
edit: I was 165 lbs @ 5'' 10'', for reference
Unless you are genetically disposed to have ultra-low bodyfat (i.e. visible abs) it's not healthy to maintain such low bodyfat. While it's not good to be obese, it's also unhealthy to maintain ultra-low bodyfat (again, unless you are genetically disposed to be that lean).
Even bodybuilders who are dedicated to their diets have to take time for an off-season...the point of which is not just to gain muscle, but to restore the metabolism after dieting to an extreme level.