yeah my best friend is female and someone i've known since i was about 7-8 years old when we were in 1st grade. she lived right next door and we just always hung out since there were no other kids living in the cul de sac. we pretty much did everything together, like school (obviously) and swimming. she and her family moved away right at the start of high school, but we always kept in touch. ive even flown down to meet her during the summers and try to visit once a year for the past 4-5 years. we've also gone on vacations together (by ourselves and with friends). to this day i talk to her about 3-4 times a week and i usually text her everyday, which all of my friends think is pretty weird, since she lives across the US.
my ex was not at all enthused about our relationship. while i really liked my ex, her "jealously" about my friend really killed it for me. i tried to explain that if something was to happen between me and my friend, it wouldve happened a LONG time ago (and nothing ever has, except for some make out sessions).
she is an important person in my life and im finding that it is starting to get hard reconciling this relationship with my intimate/romantic ones. in the past if an ultimatum ever came up where i had to choose between my friend and my gf, the gf went bye-bye. it wasn't even close- im just that loyal to her. which is why i've never been in a relationship that has lasted over one year. maybe im just attracted to crazy ass broads. who knows. maybe im also being unreasonable, but there are personal reasons why i choose to keep in close contact with this friend of mine.
i dunno. ive been sitting around re-evaluating my life right now because it is setting up to be an epic fail, so i kinda want to try and make some sense of it.
