i have a problem where I refuse to alter clothes lol
Yeah. I have this problem too. I think part of it is because I'm convinced my preferences will change and it will be hard to sell if I alter clothes. There's been some truth to that as I haven't really stuck to any style for very long yet (I'm getting closer, though). Also, I've convinced myself that at some point I'm going to start gaining weight and I will regret having things fitted. I'm still not sure about that last one, but I'm still skinny as fuck and there's no evidence for it yet.